Before marriage, we were passionately seeking each other, but now our relationship has become completely settled. Every time I feel that my husband's passion has decreased in our married life, my sense of loneliness grows. I drool, whisper dirty words, and shake my hips. I wanted to release my lustful self somewhere, which I can no longer express in front of my husband. If I don't, my womanhood will be over. Driven by a sense of impatience, I tried out a dating app. Now I feel that the only time I can be my true self is when I'm in the arms of a stranger.