Right now, my greatest joy is seeing my first grandchild, born this year. Freed from the heavy responsibilities of raising a child, my days of leisure were calm and peaceful. But even so, I still feel unfulfilled. There was definitely something that the "woman" part of me still wanted. I don't want to fall in love with a passionate heart now. I just want to be penetrated by a cock and cum until my mind goes blank. What will happen to me if I put myself in that situation? The more I interact with strangers I've met on a dating app, the more my fantasies grow. I couldn't hold it in any longer. It's embarrassing to say this at my age, but I desperately want a man.