I have no confidence in myself. Since I got married, I've become less aware of trends and have become more and more plain. Then, a young employee, Hamaguchi-kun, invited me out for drinks. I hated myself for not being in a glamorous place, and I kept turning down company parties, but I finally gave in to his insistence and went out drinking...and that night, he held me. I felt like I was no longer myself...I felt like my sexual desires were being liberated.