Mom is always selfish. She puts my brother, me, and the house on the back burner. She quickly falls for a guy and doesn't come back for days, then she knocks on my door, laughing and saying, "I'm unemployed now," and says, "I want to have sex with you! "He'll give me money instead!" she said, bringing along a man I didn't know. I was raped on the stained futon, and my mom went out to play with the money. He didn't come to the school open day, sports festival, or graduation ceremony, and my brother gave up and said, "Don't get your hopes up," and actually forgot my birthday. Even from an outsider's perspective, my mom is the worst, but maybe I'm stupid, so I just can't help but forgive him. When he hugged me tightly and rubbed my cheek against mine, I felt like he loved me. Today is Christmas. "I'll take you to a nice place," my mom called me. She remembered her promise to stay with me on Christmas. The hallway smelled good, the fluffy carpet, this expensive-looking hotel, I was nervous, wondering, "What on earth is going on?" but I soon found the answer. The room I visited was decorated with cute decorations, a delicious-looking cake, and a man with a scary smile. "Sorry, mom, I have a date planned. So I'm sorry, but I don't have any money. Can you try again?" Even though she knew it was all a lie, she wanted to believe in her mother's love. This is the story of a pitiful girl who was manipulated by selfish adults.